Being fat

Being fat sucks big time.. now i am not talking about fat fat aka 50 pounds overweight, just 15-20 pounds overweight..i have been constantly reminded of my fatness, and how i should reduce my weight and how i have changed..i just sometimes wwant to tell everyone to suck it easy, but being that i am in india, i just agree.. yeah i fat..yeah i need to lose weight...yeah it must be hard to lose weight, yeah i am sure when u were young u were the dashing hero, instead of the overwight uncle u are now..and then 10 minutes later they complain if you dont eeat 10 more ludos...

but i guess it is a good thing, as it makes u realize how impt looks are..in america we are dependent on status, and are behind the computer 20 hours a day - when we find time to go out, we are blitzed beyond belief...speaking of which i think this is the longest time i have gone without a cig, drink or any porn... and i am not going to lie to you, it feels pretty good... i even some of the swelling reduced in my face... the whole goa bombay leg is going to ruin all the good i have created, but i must admit i am going to try this in the us... who knows i might even try to run a marathon...

like tony s said family is everything... and in india u truly realize how important this is.. having ur siblings and cousins that u have not seen for five yars show u the respect that is unheard of is a feeling of goodness that no liqs can provide..... i am the oldest son on both sides so while i get constant questions about marriage, i get the respect that i prolly dont deserve..i dont let anyone touch my feet as i am unworthy, but people have tried

on friday i went to agra to visit my mom' sis there. this trip was unique in that this was my first trip in india travelling by myself..it was awesome..despite what people say indian is a very friendly place and as long as u call everyone bhaya or chacha they are more than willing to help..

my mosaji is a big man in agra and he had a guy very similar to uncle pussy roll with us wherever we went ..we went to some old tombs similar to the taj mahal and saw bear, monkeys and deer.. that uncle was cracking jokes the whole time.my little cousin akansha was cute and held my hand wherever we went.. saw th taj mahal which was spectacular.. getting home from agra to dehli was tough as i did not take the first class train like everyone else ....instead a sat in the cabin with the common people and had a great time....ipod is a great conversation starter

in bariely where my mom lives... it is weird we are like kings here...out clan is known as the kachori valla here.... all the shopkeepers know my family and even the police gives us special priveleges.... we walk into a store and people recognixe us etc so it skinda cool..

and now the real stuff.....the lack of pron has made me horny and given me perm beer goggles..every girl here looks hot, and all these girls in school out here are driving me crazy....

have not seen any movie stars yet or any models, but we shall what happens... i expect to see that in bombay..

weight lost - neglible
girls talked to - again 0, have not seen yet
times jerked, drank or smoked = 0