The Dream and the Conversation
I dont know if this happens to any of you, but I have a tendency to have the same dream. While I am sleeping, Ill recognize that it is the same dream and I have two options. I can wake myself up, essentially hitting reset, and get a new dream or I can continue to sleep and see if for some reason the dream will end differently. I know very weird.
Last night, I had my standard marriage dream, which I get about twice a month. Basically, somehow I dream that I am in a hotel room freaking out, because I am about to be engaged to a girl I barely know/ have no desire to get married to. However, in the dream my parents are trying to convince me to continue on as they have spent all this $$, and if I ditch this girl, it would crush her and her family. Word of my hesitancy leaks out, and then the girl comes into my hotel room, begging me to marry her.
she asks "whats wrong with me?" and pleads for me not to do this to her. At this point, I feel extemely stressed and the thought of marrying this girl puts me in pure agony. I dont beleive in divorce so this would be my wife for life. I feel like I have been given the death sentence by a judge. My family and my dad try to reassure me - it wont be that bad. That is the last thing you want to hear before you get engaged/married.
Luckily, before I have to make a decision of what to do, I am somehow able to wake up. Thankfully!!! Last nights dream was especially vivid, and I woke up sweating and honest to god afraid. I mean dreams about sharks, bankruptcy, losing my job, etc dont really scare me - its this situation. I quickly popped up and looked at my clock - 5am. shit. I laid 30 minutes trying to recover, actually afraid to fall asleep because I did not want to chance that I would have the rare two part dream. Does this happen to any of you?
Maybe because i am getting older, I actually fear that there is a 50% chance that this could actually happen. I was thinking of going to India this winter, but part of me is afraid of constantly being hassled about marriage. My family in India is extremely persuasive and I always fear that Ill come back from a day with the cousins and there will be a girl sitting there in the living room, who I am supposed to court. What happens if I tell my family the girl is nice, and next thing i know I have agreed to get married? Or i go to my chacha's house in the village and because I ate two ludos, I have accepted his marriage proposal. I know this shit all sounds paranoid, but welcome to my world.
To make matters more real and def worse, my nanni and mama called from India a couple hours after i had this dream. First question - are you working? I tell a white lie, and them I have an office and am happily working. What I dont tell them is that I am simply consulting for a couple startups at a very reduced price. But the next question simply made me laugh. As I have mentioned, when I went to india in 2005, my nanni was very worried about my hair loss. She cried about it, and went to her local lady and came back with all these bottles that were supposedly to grow my hair back. It is funny, I over the hairloss, and love having a shaved head. It makes getting ready easier, no hat hair to speak of. The only thing I have to worry is about sunburn. (this happened once, and believe me it is not a pretty sight. I have learned my lesson since)
Anyhow, before she asks how I am doing, she asks me in Hindi - "tell me about ur hair. Has it all flown away?" I tell her, while laughing, that yeah they are all gone, but the shaved look is working for me (and if not, people are great liars). She replies that " I have prayed for your hair, but I guess that is okay as well" She then implores me to get married before she dies, to which i tell her that she has a long time ahead of her. She appreciates my comment, and says "fine fine."
the funniest part was at the end when my nanni says " i dont want a moti". When I asked what she meant, she said she did not want a fat daughter in law....I love it. Moti girls do not get any love....
On a totally separate note, I was lucky enough to find this link on tmz.com and now its part of my morning ritual. CNN, etrade, tmz and then this.. Enjoy Amanda Kerr (NSFW)
http://splashnewsonline.celebuzz.com/2009/07/miranda-kerr-topless.html?bfm_index=4&bfm_page=0
...and of course my favorite...
Last night, I had my standard marriage dream, which I get about twice a month. Basically, somehow I dream that I am in a hotel room freaking out, because I am about to be engaged to a girl I barely know/ have no desire to get married to. However, in the dream my parents are trying to convince me to continue on as they have spent all this $$, and if I ditch this girl, it would crush her and her family. Word of my hesitancy leaks out, and then the girl comes into my hotel room, begging me to marry her.
she asks "whats wrong with me?" and pleads for me not to do this to her. At this point, I feel extemely stressed and the thought of marrying this girl puts me in pure agony. I dont beleive in divorce so this would be my wife for life. I feel like I have been given the death sentence by a judge. My family and my dad try to reassure me - it wont be that bad. That is the last thing you want to hear before you get engaged/married.
Luckily, before I have to make a decision of what to do, I am somehow able to wake up. Thankfully!!! Last nights dream was especially vivid, and I woke up sweating and honest to god afraid. I mean dreams about sharks, bankruptcy, losing my job, etc dont really scare me - its this situation. I quickly popped up and looked at my clock - 5am. shit. I laid 30 minutes trying to recover, actually afraid to fall asleep because I did not want to chance that I would have the rare two part dream. Does this happen to any of you?
Maybe because i am getting older, I actually fear that there is a 50% chance that this could actually happen. I was thinking of going to India this winter, but part of me is afraid of constantly being hassled about marriage. My family in India is extremely persuasive and I always fear that Ill come back from a day with the cousins and there will be a girl sitting there in the living room, who I am supposed to court. What happens if I tell my family the girl is nice, and next thing i know I have agreed to get married? Or i go to my chacha's house in the village and because I ate two ludos, I have accepted his marriage proposal. I know this shit all sounds paranoid, but welcome to my world.
To make matters more real and def worse, my nanni and mama called from India a couple hours after i had this dream. First question - are you working? I tell a white lie, and them I have an office and am happily working. What I dont tell them is that I am simply consulting for a couple startups at a very reduced price. But the next question simply made me laugh. As I have mentioned, when I went to india in 2005, my nanni was very worried about my hair loss. She cried about it, and went to her local lady and came back with all these bottles that were supposedly to grow my hair back. It is funny, I over the hairloss, and love having a shaved head. It makes getting ready easier, no hat hair to speak of. The only thing I have to worry is about sunburn. (this happened once, and believe me it is not a pretty sight. I have learned my lesson since)
Anyhow, before she asks how I am doing, she asks me in Hindi - "tell me about ur hair. Has it all flown away?" I tell her, while laughing, that yeah they are all gone, but the shaved look is working for me (and if not, people are great liars). She replies that " I have prayed for your hair, but I guess that is okay as well" She then implores me to get married before she dies, to which i tell her that she has a long time ahead of her. She appreciates my comment, and says "fine fine."
the funniest part was at the end when my nanni says " i dont want a moti". When I asked what she meant, she said she did not want a fat daughter in law....I love it. Moti girls do not get any love....
On a totally separate note, I was lucky enough to find this link on tmz.com and now its part of my morning ritual. CNN, etrade, tmz and then this.. Enjoy Amanda Kerr (NSFW)
http://splashnewsonline.celebuzz.com/2009/07/miranda-kerr-topless.html?bfm_index=4&bfm_page=0
...and of course my favorite...
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